Yay, I've had a pretty productive and positive day. :) Lets see, I got my diet journal up and running :) It's just got thinspo pictures for like the inside cover, diet articles from magazines, and then like what I ate for the day and like shows my progress and stuff :) I know, I'm lame but I'm really happy to have it. Yay! Haha anyways... enough about diets, you guys don't wanna hear that junk.
Well, I went to Kyle's today... Haha I'm stupid to keep going back to him and I fully know that. Its just not the same as it used to be going over there either. Why am I being so idiotic? I should prolly just end it now but I've made a plan and sticking to it. I'm not breaking up with him till the day before camp ends which is in 14 days... I don't know, maybe that's a stupid idea, more time for my heart to get broken but who cares. It'll be nice to not have an awkward time in the car, I'll just pretend like he's not a cheating jackass :P Nah, he's not a jackass, he just isn't in love with me and yeah, that hurts but really, not everyone can love me. :) Well yeah, nothin really happened at his house. Well except that stupid picture but whatever, its not like I didn't know.... And the fact that he still hasn't tried denying the rumor.... But like I said, it doesn't matter,
really....And lets see, what else should I say...? Um well, I'm really pumped because I'm allowed to wear all black now :) Today I wore: black hoodie, black tank-top, black skirt, black shoes. I didn't have time to do my make-up though :( Haha oh well.... But yeah... :) I'm a pretty happy girl today.
A poem and then I'm out.
It All Started With A Break:
Breaking
Remembering earlier conversations
Breaking
Remembering the pain of the pull
Breaking
Knowing the fact that the love is gone
Breaking
Crying
Sitting in a corner
Crying
Clutching her knees closer to herself
Crying
Dying
Trying to catch a breath
Dying
Watching the red swirl around
Dying
(I know, its not my best work but w.e. I haven't been able to creatively write lately.)
Comments (1)
i think it's nice. i can see you sitting there and i can also see you in black. i think you would be beautiful all in black. ♫